Do you ever wonder
If there are people
Who were born with ponds of sadness
Ponds that would grow to lakes
Locked up deep within their inner space
To keep from spilling down their face?
I think I might be one of them
Because I find myself
Looking for excuses to validate my sadness
Something
Anything
To blame the river of tears
That escape without consent
Discomforting those around me.
Preferably a circumstance
Deemed worthy
For the lake of tears
Welled up within me.
Because there is always a reason
To be sad
It’s only logical
They say.
Unless I’m just defective.
I think.
When did this start
I wonder
I’m left with tears to ponder.
M.C.M.
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Dear Lovely Reader,
I don’t know if anyone else can relate, but sometimes I find myself crying for seemingly no reason. I’m overly sensitive, and try desperately to hide my emotions from the world and it’s debilitating at times.
And although I hide myself away in the corners and recesses of my mind to keep from affecting others, I still manage to hurt the ones around me. Constantly asking for forgiveness for something I don’t think even I can control.
Have you ever had a moment like that? Where everything seems perfect and life couldn’t be better… But you find yourself feeling discontent?
M.C.M.